Wednesday, November 30
What's your sexual orientation?
I got up and headed out of the bathroom. I had planned on bringing the planner to the office when this guy, who I didn't know I had a crush on yet, said, "Hey, did you find that in the bathroom just now?"
"Yah. It was in the boys bathroom stall." I said, handing it to him.
"Sorry, I was going to just bring it to the office." I said acting fidgety and nervous.
I kept my eyes on the speckled hall way floor.
"It's ok. I was just worried someone would read it."
Little did he know I read it? Well, he found out later that I had in fact read it. We had, "kind of" dated. Not really but sort of. He bought me a hamburger at Burger King, my first gay male date! We were in high school, and it was the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for me! Things turned out badly because prior to a liberal arts education, I actually thought weed was a terrible drug. I was wrong! Anyhow!
Over the summer of 2009 I received a FB message from him.
July 13, 2009
- jacob. . are you gay? between you and me. ha
My response - unfortunately for me yes i am finally comfortable saying it you can tell anyone you want to
- why unfortunately? and aight. . i'm not going to go around and tell people. it'll get a lot easier for you.
My response - I say unfortunately because it's a difficult thing to be. ive already noticed a difference but im still freaking out not sure what to expect
In school, I always hated it when people would ask me if I was gay. Because it put me in a box. It cornered me. It was either you were gay or straight. And knowing now that there are asexuals, bisexuals, pansexuals, lesbians, gays, and even people who are bi-curious, the more appropriate question would be, what's your sexual orientation? This question does a number of things differently than the question of "are you gay?" But before that, let's look at how uncomfortable you can make someone by asking them if they are gay. I've made this mistake.
Me - Hey I don't want to be rude or offensive or anything. Nor do I want to out you. Being gay myself it can be crazy tough. especially in high school. I am just wondering if you are gay?
His response - Hello Jacob:
Everyone is entitled to their opinions and their questions, yet not everyone is entitled to an answer. No, I neither believe that you are being offensive nor rude. To be honest, I don’t know/understand myself well enough to give you an explanation or answer. I do, on the other hand, have a question for you; why do question my sexual orientation?
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(In the genuine and never wavering transparency of who I am in all honesty, the following is the weirdest and most awfully uncomfortable thing I have ever said.)
My response - Fair enough question. I was first wondering about it when I left the administration office one afternoon and you had turned your head back towards me like you had checked me out. Initially I didn't want to think to far into it as people turn their heads to any movement no matter what.
But I saw you again in the auditorium and recognized it had been the one who I thought had checked me out.
But more so I started noticing things at the conference. The funniest thing being when you had put lotion all over your body after coming out of the shower and you had put a shirt on and asked yourself why your shirt was greasy. I was going to answer your question but decided that would be rude.
Glee, hanging with girls, and my good friend said you had skipped happily into Target today. - - - - and I had talked briefly about you. I have been creepily been keeping tabs on you ever since I assumed you checked me out. Terrible of me. But it is how I roll.
The primary reason I ask is because I know the statistics and the brutality of being gay. The objective facts is life is harsh on lgbt students. I am more concerned for you than anything else. Not in a romantic sense though. Just like in general for the lgbt youth.
Hopefully I didn't get to carried away.
So, I tend to be pretty open, honest, and sometimes overly self concerned. It's the thing that people either absolutely love about me, or hate about me. I never received a response. But perhaps, things would have been smoother if I would have asked, what's your sexual orientation?
It's often told to me never to ask if anyone's gay, straight, lesbian, etc. Because it's often viewed as being rude. But, if people view the question as rude, people are blatantly admitting that, in all honesty, being gay is apparently a taboo that no one is suppose to ask about or talk about. But, the real reason the question of "are you gay" is rude, is because it corners people, and makes them uncomfortable something negative. If the answer is yes, you are flaming out of the closet. If the answer is no, you're obviously lying.
However, if you ask, what's your sexual orientation, you will come off as more educated being that there are many sexual orientations. It's sort of like asking someone what their job is. It would be rare to ask someone, "Are you a janitor?". Or, "Are you a professor?". Though, I am sure it happens. The more appropriate and sophisticated question would be, "What do you do for a living?"
When it comes to sexual orientation, people should ask, what's your sexual orientation, because asking someone if they are gay is practically assuming they are gay. What's your sexual orientation, is a more open ended question that reads, well, this person isn't going to judge me for being gay, straight, bi, pan, ace, etc. They just want to know what to expect from me, and that's not too bad of a thing to ask at all.
I'm gay, how about yourself.
Posted by Jacob Woods at 10:51 AM
Labels: are you gay, how to ask someone if they're gay, what's your sexual orientation
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